the song, movie, and story of my life...

everyone have their own song of their life, movie of their life and also the story of their own life...

and also with me. ive my own song..theres a lot of song who always with me in my life as natasya vierashi thursdinty. such as, 

"Ingatlah hari ini by project pop. i sing this song at my graduated. to remind all my friends..

to remind all the memories behind.

I sing "Ceria by J-Rocks", when me and my family holiday at Jogjakarta (really wonderfull place...great place in indonesia) want to go there again...

"separated by usher", i sing that song to cheer my broken heart...coz im the loser !!!

almost all movie that ive been watching is the title in my life...such as armagedon, witch is realy the best movie in my life... a walk to remember,for remember what hapned in my love...harry potter, lord of the rings the movie who makes me feel a live with always dreaming..cause im the dreamer. merah putih for came to the reality that im indonesian. and all korean movies something that makes me realize that the country is possible to i live there..live there forever. (biggest dream)

and the story of my life is...all the sadness, happiness, and less love in my life as me. but it would changing..somehow i know it works, all my dream..thats why i need to me for remind all my memories behind.

i said love..life..happily in my dream..

for me its okay if i live in my dream..cause only in my dream i can created my own life.

thats why, i need to make it real..i ve to try so hard for something real..

the story behind it...

"Cinderella, will not be a story if she did not leave her glass shoes.""Landon Carter's personality may not change if he is not paired with Jamie Sullivan.""Eun-Suh is not possible to find true love through Joon-Suh.""Without sacrifice Harry Stamper, Grace Stamper may not unite with aj Forst."
"Han Ji-Eun wouldn't get married with young-jae, if the full house unsold."

i can said that as the story behind it...theres a view story about how them get their love story happily ever after. there's still a lot of love story. but for me, sometimes i choose to be alone. because i always get hurt when im fallin in love.

and i just think, what about my story ?? can my story like Cinderella who find her true love because she lost her glass shoes, or jamie sullivan who meet landon carter who really care with her. how about if i made my own story...

"i'm finally found the right man. he is the best man i ever meet, he is the right man i have choose.
i meet him at the unpredictible time. and then love each other. and the story goes on..."
hahahaha...but thats not what i wanted. i always dreaming someone in the right time, the right place and also the right man.


love can be anything for me...but im sure that love just around me..

Korea--Korea--Korea--

anyong Haeseoyoo...

hahaha...korea is the biggest dream. i have to be there as soon.
yiippie, ngga cuman karena gue suka sama drama-drama nya aja tapi juga gue suka sama semua yang ada dikorea. mungkin memang awalnya karena gue suka sama drama korea yang idenya dan ceritany so Originil. ngga kayak sinetron2 indonesia yang sukanya ngejiplak (sinetron indonesia belakangan ini...). ngga malu apa ngga punya ide sendiri atau ngga punya duit buat izin ksana. padahal kalau pemilihan serta segala sesuatunya dioikirkan, dirundingkan ngga akan malu-maluin kok. malah semakin membaguskan nama perindustrian film di indo, such as boys before flower yang udah dibuat dengan berbagai versi. kalau aja ngomong or secara legal ngebuatnya kan film inikan cinta yang main indra l brugman, leony, dll itu akan jadi boys before flower RESMI versi Indonesia.

hhahahha..anyway, i still sarang ha my country..
but i choose to spend my last time in overseas...so faar from indo.

tradisi lebaran...

hhhmmm....lebaran atau idul fitri merupakan momen yang sakral bagi umat muslim. karena disaat ini lah para umat muslim diseluruh dunia saling memaafkan dan mencapai kemenangan setelah sebulan penuh berpuasa *even i feel like im not one of them.

btw, di seluruh dunia umat muslim mensyukuri hari idul fitri dengan tradisi masing-masing. seperti di indonesia yang memiliki tradisi setelah shalat ied, trus makan ketupat dirumah masing2 langsung berkeliling kerumah2 tetangga. or mudik yang paling the most, walaupun bikin capek selama perjalan tapi setelah sampai ditujuan semua nya terasa terbalaskan.  dan yang paling gue sukai ditradisi itu adalah. pada saat lebaran kita akan saling bertegur sapa*walaupun sblm lebran jarang banget negor!!boro2 untuk negor, nengok aja kagak klo cuman lewat.* dan saling mengucapakan "Minal Aidin Wal Faizin, Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin".

gue sendiri juga begitu..hehehe...jalanan setiap gue pulang kantor selalu ada cowok2 nongkrong, walaupun gue kenal sama mereka hal yang  bakalan gue lakuin klo ketemu mereka cuman senyum-senyum aja ! tapi pas lebaran kita jabatan tangan dan saling mengucapkan kata kunci lebaran..sambil dalam hati " maapin yee..selama ini cuman senyum doang kagak negor."..hehehe

yah...and one moment yang gue suka. keluarga besar gue cuman bisa ketemu klo ga ada yang lagi bikin acara kawinan yah acara2 lain. tapi klo lagi lebaran kumpul semua. dan lebaran kali ini keluarga besar gue GUCI fam, kehilangan salah satu panutan dalam keluarga, adang Wim..yang telah meninggal.

we miss u Dang, minal aidin wal faizin.

part of my life 1

PART OF MY LIFE 1...

is...my big family and my relatives.
Part Of My Life yang pertama adalah keluarga besarku. tidak hanya mom, dad, and my brother's but also my causin's, aunt's and uncle's and the youngets Rafa.
Mom, Erawaty Warti Baransoen, Dad ,  Didin Koeswara, Brother , Rio Panduwinta, Brother, Edho Octobranando, Mak'uo, om jul, om aa, mama lence, tante eni, kak pipit, kak ira, shinta, vivi, bang jep, bang rey, kak titi, and my boss Rafa.

they are is a part of my life, because they in into my world and my life. i know it sounds freak. but someday i guess i'll let it be past. never been here, never imagine, just feel.

thanks for being a part of my life.
mom, with everything you always wanted, but i just can wish that someday i will make it real.
Dad, with all ure silence. but i know u think about anything that u've done, and im not blame with that.
Biyo, just reach what u alwayas wanna do, but still remember that mom, dad, and family always support you.
Bndo, never give up, we always love you anything happen to you.
mak'uo, dont u ever think that noone care about you, they always love u.
Om Jul, thank om...you are my hero the one and only hero i've. sorry, if i always make u feel upset but someday, somehow i can make you proud of me. thats my promise om..
Om AA, thanks for your support om, i know you can and everyone love u.
Mama lence, our angel.
Tante eni, thanks for loving my uncle and loving my family.
Kak pipit, sist, theres nothing can change the way you made my think like you're. and you will never know how i love and admire at you.
Kak Ira, love you for being my family and we can always share the book that we read and korean drama.
Shinta, she's the best causin i've ever had. sorry for everthing that i've done, i love you.
Vivi, My lovely cousin the smarter girl in fam and kindly person. luv luv
Bang Jep, hhhmmm....i know you can do anything you want.
Bang Rey, theres always a hope and u can trust and also the love with it.
Kak Titi, thank for coming into my family and became a part of my family.
Rafa, and he is make my first part complete. love u my dearest nephew.

and i do i love them with all the diffrents.

My big Family

 

Big Boss, R.A.R

Happy Ied...

Today, september, 10th 2010. every moslem in this world celebrate Ied. after Ramadhan, we celebrate our glorry..

hahahaha....why im laughing ?
karena gue yakin banget bahwa dibulan ramadhan kali ini, gue bukan lagi anak berumur 10 thn yang dikit2 minta minum. ujian terberat dibulan ramadhan kali ini adalah menahan emosi gue. segala macam emosi atau lebih tepatnya lagi ke apa yang gue rasain. gue gampang banget marah, cepet banget tersinggung. dan itu mengapa gue ketawa. karena selama ini gue berpikir gue adalah orang yang udah cukup dewasa, nyata-nya I'M NOT.

gue ketawa, buat ngetawain nasib gue yang masih belom berubah.
Gue ketawa, dengan keputusan gue "yang menurut gue sendiri, gue terlalu cepat untuk memutuskan" untuk mengenakan jilbab.
Gue Ketawa, akan pikiran yang selalu berkecamuk di otak gue.
Gue ngetawain diri gue sendiri karena gue terlalu malas untuk mengakui, bahwa gue KALAH.

gue bukan lah cewek yang baik, sebaik penampilan atau sikap gue didepan umum. gue tetep manusia yang pasti punya tahapan untuk menuju yang lebih baik. tapi gue juga ga mau kalau harus hidup terus dalam keadaan seperti ini.

seharusnya lebaran kali ini menjadi awal bagi gue menuju sesuatu yang lebih baik, dan harus nya hari ini gue merasakan kemenangan itu. tapi gue belom merasakannya. gue masih penuh dengan DOSA.
gue harus mulai lagi dari nol...dan itulah mengapa ied selalu hadir setelah 1 bulan kita umat muslim berpuasa a..k.a bulan ramadhan. agar umat bisa mengubah sikap dan bertawakal.

"mungkin gue bukan wanita yang baik saat ini, tapi gue nggak akan pernah berhenti menjadi lebih baik di dalam setiap hembusan nafas."